No apology necessary

So I woke up this morning to yet another apology. I don't mean to sound callous but...


It's almost funny to hear you say you realize how it feels to be ignored. You don't know how I lasted so long. How you realize that it's too little too late...offering me a hot mug of peppermint tea as a peace offering. You dismissed the possibility of incalculable happiness. That was your choice. I was just another pawn. Little did you know, I've always held the position of QUEEN.

The queen (♕,♛) is the most powerful piece in the game of chess and can move in any direction.
This statement is soooo powerful to me. It makes me realize that I don't have to be stagnant due to your inability to even imagine the depths of my ability to soar. I am magnanomous. I love myself despite all that you've withdrawn. I can never be reduced to your ideals of me. I was God's gift to a great man and no other will ever be greater than he. **I originally wrote born and then substituted God's gift which is actually the meaning of my middle name. God is great. Thank you, Lord. I am having a moment. **

You, too, were a gift to me. You made me strong. You made me realize that life is about struggle and the opportunity to rise above. You motivated me to become a diva since I wasn't good enough *look @ me now*. You made me understand LOVE in its many forms.
Agapao (verb) is a special word representing the divine love of God toward His Son, human beings in general and believers. It is also used to depict the outwardly focused love God expects believers to have for one another.
Phileo (verb) means "'to have ardent affection and feeling'—a type of impulsive love". This is the natural, human type of love and affection that we have for a friend and is often defined as "brotherly love."
Eros (noun) refers to sexual, erotic love or desire.
You helped me to understand what love isn't and how to effectively LOVE. I now understand that everyone has a place, a purpose and a destination and for that I am grateful. I've learned a myriad of  things, but most importantly:

I AM A GIFT. I was designed that way...
**so whatever you do, don't apologize.  IT'S NOT NECESSARY!